Of Carbs and Cooking: More Spaghetti Please

 

Spaghetti Dinner for One: Best Meal of the Week

Had a full dinner tonight. 

Spaghetti remains a favorite meal for me. Of course there isn’t a lot of food I know how to cook. The issue I have with anything that needs to be cooked after work, is the lag time between preparation and eating. I’m hungry when I begin the prep. That leads to snacking, a lot. If the meal takes 30 minutes, I’m half full on whatever I munched on during the wait phase. It’s a problem of self control. I could force myself to wait for the food to cook and count the minutes before the water boiled. Then dig out the noodles to see if they’re soft enough to drain. And finally, wait for both noodles, sausage and sauce to simmer together for 5 minutes. I haven’t mastered patience yet.

The weekends are a little different however, I can cook before I’m really hungry and not have to fill up on crackers or potato chips.

But whether I’m making spaghetti on a work night or on an Sunday afternoon, most it will get polished off during the leftover phase. And yes, leftovers are just as good as a meal straight from the pan. I don’t make the garlic bread anymore unless I’m serving a handful of people. Not because of some no bread diet or anything, I just don’t crave it like I used to. Anyway, the consistency of reheated garlic bread is similar to a dishwashing glove--rubbery, chewy, tasteless. It’s completely unlike the noodles and sauce which warms up nicely and doesn’t surrender taste. Where does my love for spaghetti come from? It’s not like we used to eat a lot of it as kids. But then, I don’t know what a lot would be. Certainly not once a week, like with pizza.

Wherever my fondness for the classic Italian dish comes from, it hasn’t wore off yet. I’m as committed to having it once a week as am to getting in my miles when jogging. The carb heavy meal actually works well for work outs too. Carbohydrates are quick sources of energy because they turn into glucose quicker than do fats or proteins. The glucose is stored as glycogen for an efficient fuel source during a run. I didn’t need to hear that something I already enjoy is good for energy, but it certainly helped. Right about the time I found out about carb loading is about the time I started doing a spaghetti meal every week. Before that I had laid off making it quite so often. 

I’d burned out a little. Running brought me back.

Obviously I love homemade food but don’t have enough time to cook a lot of different meals. Tuesday through Friday are packed with events, men’s groups and training in the evenings. Mondays are typically free. On the weekends I like to relax. I realize I could cook more often on Saturday afternoons or Sunday evenings, but I like to lay around a little too. Plus, we’re in football season and I’ll always try to watch a few games on TV. I don’t watch it all day, but I’ll catch at least one NFL game and maybe a Saturday night one as well. I tend to doze off though. It’s a wonderful feeling to snooze for an hour or so just because you’re tired enough to do so.

For now at least I’ll keep my meals simple.

I should probably mention the biggest drawback to cooking, I’m not good at it. Even spaghetti is only “cooking” in the most basic sense. I doubt cooks would call it that. It’s closer to warming food up. It’s not like I’m making my own sauce or anything. I brown the sausage and add it to an already simmer pot of marinara (or meat sauce) from a jar. In recent years I’ve switched to the Rao’s brand. It’s more expensive but tastes better than the Prego I used to buy. I like the Johnsonville mild sausage instead of the ground chuck from the grocery store. Here I’m also not sure when this changed, but I prefer sausage. It also doesn’t render into a greasy pool in the frying pan like fatty beef either. Once the water boils I dump in the noodles. This part is tricky. Sometimes I put too many noodles in and have to save them for the next meal. It’s not easy to tell how much I’ll need though. Is a handful or two handfuls? Well, at least they’re cheap.

I probably cook my noodles slightly beyond the ‘Al dente’ standard because I can’t abide even a hint of crunch. And I always use the spaghetti noodles and not pasta penne or bowties or any other variety. Once it’s sticky it’s ready. Then comes the low heat marinade process. By then I’ve usually eaten handfuls of cashew pieces to take off the hunger urge. Once the pan cools, I sit down to eat.

 Cooking? Maybe not, but it’s close enough for now.

Charlie Kirk is the Man Who Won Over the Youth

The Assassination of Charlie Kirk is a Turning Point for America

I’ve been broken hearted this whole last week over the death of Charlie kirk. Such a brazen, monstrous act demands a full-throated response. More on that later. They took the best of us. They killed the man they couldn’t debate. They shot the truth teller because their hearts were full of lies. They murdered an effective leader who started turning the youth to Christ. Who is “They”? the Left. The demonic, selfish Left that couldn’t hear the truth about the lie of transgender ideology. Nor could they handle sound logic about abortion and gay lifestyles. Charlie spoke logic and held up our behavior to the living truth of the gospel. They killed him like John the Baptist and reveled in his destruction.

Happy Warrior

He wasn’t a minister, but anyone who speaks truth must eventually contend with the Divine. The world God created is designed a certain way. It doesn’t matter how you feel about it. The Creator of the world spoke life and process into existence and gave humanity a role in nurturing it. We ignore its design at our own peril. Charlie’s articulation of God’s natural order was easy to understand. He spoke plainly about everything and never apologized. His humor and attitude remained positive, forward thinking. The eagerness with which he took on all challengers made him stand out among his peers.

His Movement

His Turning Point movement became more important to the Republican party than the RNC (Republican National Committee) ever was. It remains the most effective vehicle for bringing the young, men in particular, to the Right. Charlie didn’t separate politics from Christianity except where there isn’t any commonality. TPUSA (Turning Point USA) had begun a faith wing to bring churches and Christian leaders on board. This probably didn’t sit well with those who think religion and politics shouldn’t mix. But like the old Republican establishment, that way of thinking is being replaced by a youth movement that wants more of God.

Young America

After seeing their world ripped apart by lies about marriage, family and moral living, Generation Z wants a world with ordered purpose. With all its imperfections, religion (Christianity in America) unites us under a common belief system. It wasn’t that long ago that divorce was rare, houses were affordable, and depression and anxiety were less common. Kids recognize that something has broken down in the culture. It begins with a strong fear of the Lord that’s been missing in society. Kirk knew how to show this through argumentation and debate. They killed him for it.

Where to from here?

This is ultimately a Spiritual problem. As Christians we pray for our land. We pray for those who cursed Charlie and celebrated his death, but we demand justice and retribution in the strongest terms. It’s domestic terrorism and should be dealt with by kicking in doors and freezing bank accounts. This kid they’ve arrested was at least connected with Antifa. Not to mention his boyfriend looks to be another confused transgender. Arrests need to begin immediately. I don’t believe the FBI doesn’t know who the secretive Antifa are or where their funding comes from. We need an earnest accounting of who sources domestic terrorism.

If the Left is too entrenched in the deep state to make a difference, we don’t have a country anymore.

Funding Sources

Steve Bannon said on his Saturday show that he thinks MAGA law enforcement types are afraid of being killed. Let’s pray that that isn’t true. I’d start looking into the Soros network first, but if Elon Musk’s DODGE showed us anything it’s that most Left wing funding comes from the taxpayers. No line item exists on the federal budget for violent Marxists of course, but through thousands of cutouts the money gets there. Like water on the street after a rainfall, it finds the cracks every time. I’m optimistic that at least the top level FBI and DOJ (Department of Justice) offices are on board with the crackdown. The FBI is still full of deep state goons hoping to bide their time until Trump is gone. It’s a fight that I hope team Trump is ready for.

On that note, I read a transcript of the Vice President (Vance) on Charlie Kirk’s radio show today. He said something that I think needs to be repeated because a lot of normies like the sound of unity. He laid bare the lie about “unity” that people use so cheaply on social media. And, he said it isn’t a “both sides” problem. Fortunately, he gets it at a fundamental level, as does Stephen Miller. As long as both of them are involved in the fight, and the messaging, I’m encouraged.

Christian Response

As to the Spiritual side of this, I’m reminded that ‘we wrestle not against flesh and blood’. Prayer is always the response of the Christian to trials and upheaval. But I’m concerned that some of my fellow believers are waving this killing off too quickly, and excitedly talking about the possible salvation of the killer. Their first response should be to see justice done swiftly and the network of domestic terror dismantled. I worry that we don’t have righteous anger toward evil anymore. That soft on crime attitude from Evangelical Liberals makes us all less safe. Our cities are violent and out of control because of policies that blame victims and excuse repeat offenders. 

Conclusion

I said above we need a full-throated response from law enforcement or this will keep happening. Dismantle the networks, kick in doors, arrest the conspirators and kill the violent resistance. We need to pray for our investigators and police, federal and local, to bring swift justice and make critical arrests. Just like with the crackdown on criminal illegal aliens, we don’t just pray that they’ll all go back to their country. We send in the ones appointed by God to bring justice. It's maddening that this evil seems to persist. Elementary schools are under attack by vicious trans monsters while innocent women are stabbed riding the light rail home after work. It's time for a reckoning.  

I think Psalm 94 is appropriate here.

“How long will the wicked triumph? They utter speech, and speak insolent things; all the workers of iniquity boast in themselves. They break in pieces Your people, O Lord, and afflict Your heritage. They slay the widow and the stranger, and murder the fatherless. Yet they say, “The Lord does not see, nor does the God of Jacob understand.” (verses 4-7)

“He has brought on them their own iniquity, and shall cut them off in their own wickedness; the Lord our God shall cut them off.”(verse 23)

Charlie Kirk brought light and truth to a generation. His legacy will live on. 

Labor Day 25: Learning to Do Home Repair

 

Working on the House and Forcing Myself to Learn 

Labor Day in 2025. Normally I’d go for a run to start off the day. I’m good about taking advantage of days where I’d normally work. Today is a free day. But I’ve wasted enough time this year sitting around and watching YouTube when I should’ve been fixing some eye sores in the house. I started yesterday. I bought a ceiling fan at Lowes, then tried to install it. Next I took off the old model, the ones that’s developed an irritating hum. Looked up in the ceiling where the junction box should be. I’m still not sure what it is. It’s a junction box of sorts, I guess. But it looks nothing like the ones in the online tutorials. My house is old (1941) so there’s that. It’s not uncommon to take off a wall plate and stare with confusion at what sits inside.

Even if the old piece that worked just fine with the old fan is operational, the bracket for the fan doesn’t line up. The antique in the ceiling needs to be replaced. It’s a little loose anyway. That makes me think it might have been the problem with the low hum fan in the first place. Especially if the hum is from a slight vibration and not the motor, we have the culprit. Either way it has to go. I crawled up in the attic to get a better look between the 2 x 4s. The attic crawl space over my bedroom isn’t even big enough to be called a crawl space. Not to mention it’s covered with spray in foam. I can’t get back in there. I decided right then I would call an electrician. They might be able to do it from the bedroom by cutting a wider hole in the ceiling and yanking out the old unit.

I’m in new territory here so I’ll wait.

Being in the attic for a brief time made me realize how awful the condition of the hatch door is. It’s never been in great shape. I don’t have one of those handy fold-down ladders and I generally avoid going up there as much as possible. But the hatch is  another one of those projects, like the fan, that I’ve put off for too many years. So here we are, Labor Day and I head off to Lowes to buy a lightweight hatch and a patch kit for some drywall. I didn’t really know what to use. Regular plywood is too heavy. The associate helped me find a ¼ inch thick plywood and cut it to my specs. It nearly fit. I had to trim about a half an inch off the sides in a half ass way. I used a jigsaw because I didn’t have a circular saw. It looks as bad as you can imagine, but it fits.

I also stuck a piece of foam insulator to the top (attic side). I’m not sure how well this will work yet. None of these projects are as easy as they play out in your head. But I’ve learned to expect this and just go with it. Not that my attitude is chill, far from it. But I do expect delays and problems. Some of that is living in an old house and retrofitting here and there. I won’t pretend I work on the house all the time either. I’m more of yard guy, as I’ve detailed many times. Landscaping is a soothing balm for my soul where home repair, a festering sore. Painting might be the one exception. Not because I love to paint, but there isn’t a lot that can go wrong. Don’t like the color, buy new paint. Spill on the floor, clean it up. Painting is the kind of house work I can do without help.

And speaking of paint, I slapped on 3 coats of primer to my new wood hatch door after I stuck the insulation on. Even without doing the project I really wanted, I still managed a successful day of projects. The patch kit was for a hole in the ceiling near the hatch. I slapped on a patch and covered it with compound. Again, we’ll see how it holds. I’m not sure why it matters whether or not I got anything done. It’s Labor Day after all…who cares if you sit down and watch TV or sleep in late? Maybe because home repair stuff is always so tedious to me, I take every opportunity to brag about the smallest wins. Well maybe humble brag at least. I’m not exactly showing my work or telling you how expert the work was. Whenever I take on some new home project I go through this unhealthy self-criticism about my lack of knowledge. But the only way to get increase knowledge is to work on the house more often.

As I’ve stated however, I loathe it. I’d rather spend all day cutting grass and digging holes in the yard than 1 hour trying to do any type of house repair.  But even mildly successful work builds just enough confidence to try again.

Or maybe just wait till next year.

Reflections of the Creator

 

Creativity Reflects God in Everything We Do

The summer is coming to a close and with it, the need to spend time mowing the lawn and watering the flowers. It doesn’t take that long of course, but it’s one more time suck away from writing. My Cubs games are another one. I paid for MLB network this year thinking I might only watch a handful of games. Turns out, I have the opposite problem. The team is playing well and looking to make a deep playoff run. That means it’s hard to turn off. The biggest reason for not writing as much is the 3 nights per week of personal training I do. This is new since June. I’m busier than I was at the beginning of the year by orders of magnitude.

New Realities

But even with the new responsibilities I could squeeze in a 700 word blog once in a while. Something has shifted in my attitude toward writing and I can’t pin it down. When I started the blog over 10 years ago it was a way to keep myself accountable to the process and improving in the craft. Putting it online is more about having to look at how long it’s been since my last post. Currently I’m only putting a new one out every 3 or 4 weeks. 7 to 10 days used to be the longest stretch I allowed myself without feeling like a slug who watches too much baseball. I’d scribble something out just to complete the empty space on my wall. Now I can' hardly manage that.

A lot of my favorite pieces over the years are thrown together bits of opinion that formed a semi coherent article. That sense of responsibility to the page has drifted away like a helium balloon. It’s still up there somewhere above my head on a very long string. I haven’t cut the string and let it float away just yet. When you start something creative it isn’t easy to just cut it loose. Maybe I’m stretching the meaning of the word “creative” here, but in the most basic sense the articles are mine. The ideas, thoughts and opinions presented on the site went through a filter in my brain and came out as an expression of me. Some were clear and concise, others were muddy and needed a good wash. But the quality isn’t really the point.

Old Examples

It’s how the ideas define you, how they’ve changed and what still remains core to your identity. Not what opinions have been consistent across time, but what intangibles still color your work.

 I’ll use PJ O’Rourke because he’s was a favorite of mine for so long. He was consistently funny and irreverent in a playful way. I was too young for the National Lampoon years and even much of what followed. But his journalism for Rolling Stone and even the books he wrote in the 90s put a smiley face on some very dull topics. His mixture of 60’s hippy and witty libertarian was the perfect attitude for the kind of journalism he pursued. He missed on a few of his books late in life, but I never held it against him. 

His opinions changed over time with the culture, but his writing was always smart and funny. He enjoyed discussing politics and culture, and always found a way to infuse his trips with humor.

I think the recognizable part of a person’s work is what it makes it unique. This is true in all realms of creativity. It provides the color. I was never a big Van Halen fan but I always knew his guitar the second a new song hit the radio. Kindergarten was as far as I got in studying music. The nice way to say it is, music wasn’t a good fit for me. I was kindly asked to try something else by my teacher after a few sessions with a recorder. But even with my unsophisticated understanding of music, Van Halen is easy to pick out. This isn’t to say that all work is brilliant, just that’s it reflects its creator.

Conclusion

A lot of this unique style is unintentional and imbeds itself into our work. The nature of creativity comes from the ultimate Creator though. Even when we don’t acknowledge Him, we are His handiwork as Paul says in Ephesians. Our creative acts are an outgrowth of our Father in heaven. In this, we reflect our maker. If I didn’t write another word on my webpage again, I hope that the small collection at least reflects the God who created me. I hope that’s the color of my writing. 

For we are His creation, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared ahead of time so that we should walk in them. Ephesians 2:10 (Holman)

Responsibility, Busyness and Stress: Learning to Manage

What have I learned about being busy?

Busyness is just a feeling. It’s possible to manage multiple tasks and become more efficient. Like anything else, responsibility is a learned habit. You need reps.

The Seasonal Thing

This time of year is hectic. With fall sports just around the corner, it’s a rush to get everything out the door in time. Youth football starts on the same weekend around the state. For the bigger leagues at least, that means everyone needs a uniform in the same time frame. Production ramps up, hours increase and stress is high. The number of orders being turned in for July and August is tough to keep up with. Phone calls demand attention as customers stream in the door to shop or pick up orders they’ve placed online. Emails fill up the inbox. Waiting to respond will elicit a nervous phone call. “Did you see my email?!!”

Youth football is different from baseball in one major way. The organizations are big, 350 to 400 kids in the larger ones. Everyone in the organization gets the same jersey. They play other grades in the same league. The jersey is reversible in case they play another grade in the same organization. The entire league starts play the week before Labor Day. The trick is getting the jerseys back and sorted before the first game. Rosters are an issue though. Not everyone is on a roster when I need them to be. That means I have to do a second and a third order for the ones who are late.

Most of my stress at least, is this particular variety. No one wants to miss the window for uniform handouts and these manufacturers need time to make them and ship them back out. The trick comes from getting the rosters (with numbers) for the jerseys in enough time to place an order. It’s tight. Some organizations are better at it. They’ve got a process in place that’s as smooth as it could be.

July and August constitute email flurry month however I’ve always got a lot of late kids to add after the fact. Late is defined as beyond the first deadline, which is drawn somewhat arbitrarily around the 4^th of July.

The Current Thing

With all the busyness I’m constantly worried I’ll miss something critical. I’ve learned to focus as much as possible on the current thing.

 Finish it first, then move on. But take as much time as you need. Quick work is sloppy work. Incomplete orders always become a bigger issue than they would have, had I just taken two minutes to review before clicking send. I could write books with multiple volumes on this topic alone. If you’re predisposed to be fast and beat everyone to the finish, mistakes will happen. They’re the proverbial bald tires you never bothered to change before your last lap. For me, it’s usually a critical item or note to the factory about color changes or name spellings I forgot to mention. A lot of these orders go to factories in non-English speaking countries. To say they’ve made some hilarious (if not costly) mistakes, is to state the obvious. Instructions must be specific.

The Visible Stress Thing

Despite the hustle, I remind myself to take deep breaths when angry. I can get short and nasty with coworkers and customers when irritated. No it doesn’t happen often, but it’s unprofessional and customers can feel your anxiety. Situational stress is something you get better at working through the more you’re exposed to it. Confidence in the face of disaster is a skill that’s closer to stage acting than changing your feelings in the moment. It’s artificial, but it’s also better than the regret from a loss of control. Rushing around increases the chance you’ll add to the problem. Slowing down the situation helps to get you to a place where you can think about what to do.

We’ve had multiple issues with the aging software in recent months. We’re using two different platforms for the retail store and they don’t work together. Every week is a new problem. It’s a little awkward when the customer is in the store and I’m trying to troubleshoot or look for a payment to do a refund. If I’m not sure what to do, I’ll write down as much info as I can and try to resolve it later. Usually if I think about it for a while the answer will be obvious. But it’s less obvious in the moment, when you’re under the gun. I can’t say why this is, but my thinking is somehow short circuited by the immediacy of the task. I’m sure others struggle with this too. The good news is that it’s possible to overcome it with effort.

The Sleeping thing

On a few nights last week I had trouble sleeping. Thoughts of the coming day, deadlines and tight shipping schedules bounced around in my head. Normally I head to the gym in the morning but with the loss of sleep I missed more than I meant to. I rolled back over to try and make up for the loss. Sleep is key, the gym can wait.

This is a season anyway. Every job I’ve worked has had a busy season. With other retail jobs it’s always the last 2 months of the year. In school it was the finals week and the subsequent research papers to finish. I’m a fitness trainer as well. January and February see a surge of new members. Membership leads to new clients for the trainers on staff. Most can double their work load if they want. If I’m not careful the schedule can get out of control.

The solution is to plan ahead as much as possible. It sounds simple enough, but clients change their plans constantly and you either work around it or lose them. The closer you stick to the scheduling the better the sleep. You’re not opening up the app and changing dates around for people if you lock them in. I’ve had to say “NO” more often. Not a week goes by without at least one person canceling or trying to get a different time. I’m always polite, but I sleep better now.

Conclusion

 I’ve never dealt with this many emails and text messages in my life. Between the two jobs it can be overwhelming. But I work with others who manage twice the number of accounts and people that I do. They also coach their kid’s soccer team and volunteer at their church. They make it to sales meetings and pack a lot of their own orders. Seeing others thrive with so much responsibility is an encouraging picture of what’s possible in a hectic environment. For someone like me who is trying to put everything in order, it’s a comfort to know that so many can. I imagine I’ll look back on this period of life and smile at how easy it was, and how busy I thought it felt. We should go from strength to strength after all. Responsibility is a habit we learn. No one is born with it.  

Fall 25 Running Cycle Kickoff: New Roles

 

Jogging with Friends and Taking on Extra Responsibilities

Today was the first day of another group training cycle with Runner’s World Tulsa.

This is always the longest break between sessions. The spring session ends in April right before the Oklahoma City Memorial marathon. There aren’t any Saturday runs again until mid-July. It's best to put your own plan together for the off season or face hot temps with an out of shape body.

The Price of 'Leadership'

I was asked to be a run lead this year. We get a voucher for new shoes and if you’ve seen the price of running shoes lately, you wouldn’t refuse either. I’ve been a De Facto leader the last few years anyway. I memorize the route every week and show up through any type of weather. The one exception was near the end of the cycle, just last year. Tulsa had a brutal storm come through. I checked out on that one. I’ll run in the rain, but those conditions were nuts. I talked to someone from the group the next week about it. Very few people showed up and the ones that did--cut their distance to just a few miles.

The thinking from Runner’s World is this, we don’t cancel because races don’t cancel. You’ll have to run in difficult conditions so get used to it.

The second marathon in Fort Worth that I ran had a similar storm the night before. It was bad enough for them to push the start time back a few hours. That seemed like the best option. Marathons are fund raisers after all. Without tornadoes and lightning it’s not likely they’ll cancel. About the best you can hope for is a delay. We did eventually start and finish the race. The course was soaking wet and sloppy, but also clear. On sunny days it’s packed full of pedestrians walking the path and getting in the way. A clear, albeit messy, track was a silver lining to a race that a lot people didn’t show up for due to poor weather.

A summer rain on a Saturday morning isn’t the worst thing anyway.

The Price of Being Out of Shape

The summer heat is rough on new joggers especially. Starting early helps, but eventually it slows you down if you aren’t acclimated. I’ve spent the last few months staying in running shape. I’m not in the kind of condition needed to run a marathon yet. I’ll run more during the season and get my mileage above 20 for the week. But I kept at it all summer. Conditioning your legs to hold up in the heat and your lungs to breathe will pay off. I told someone today that I enjoyed the heat. It’s only partially true. I enjoy the results that come from training in the heat. There isn’t a good way to replicate that on a treadmill.

Whether jogging indoors or outside, I’m busier this year than ever before.

 I have a full schedule of clients for my personal training position. For the last couple of months I’ve been doing part time work through a gym. This is in addition to my regular 9-5 at the sporting goods store. I’ve had this idea about working sales and doing personal training on my own at some point. I mean working for myself of course. For now I just need to experience practicing with various groups and putting together work out plans for them. Gyms are good places to find a mix of people of all ages and stations. Some need rudimentary functional exercise and others need a high intensity challenge. Others are retirement age and hoping to increase muscle endurance. It allows me to do a little research and practice techniques and sharpen my methods.

Conclusion

For now at least I don't have time for anything else. In previous years I would've have passed on the chance to be a run lead. But it’s not a lot of responsibility and I’ve been halfway there, responsibility wise. Besides, it feels like I’m in a season of new responsibilities across the board. From the new accounts I’m managing to the new people I’m training. It’s all moving toward larger roles. I won’t make more of it than that. It’s just an interesting development that I’ve noticed. Some people collect responsibilities the way others collect seashells. Organization is practically their love language. Not me. I’ve never been one to take on projects or teams on a voluntary basis. That’s probably more a function of not wanting to be bothered, than about some lack of organization. Maybe that’s finally changing.

I am finding out that I prefer to be busy than have a lot of free time. Weird.

 

 

 

Love Day 25: God Works Through Community

 

We Grow in Community: Love Day 25

Today was “Love Day” for Church on the Movers in Tulsa. 

Love is a Verb

It’s an annual community serve day in July where we offer help to our neighbors. Opportunities exist all over the city to clean up, renovate and remake a lot of our common areas. Not everything is about hard, manual work though. Some require prayer and relational help. Most Love Day serving requires gloves and elbow grease. I signed up for the Food on the Move nonprofit that grows vegetables for the community. They have a lot of indoor and outdoor farmland. It benefits the residents who often, don’t have enough money for basic groceries.

At the start of the day, the director gave the volunteers a short history of the facility. Started by Taylor Hanson, the 90’s pop star from Tulsa, after a Q&A with a former ambassador to South Africa. The diplomat told Taylor to engage the community instead of going through the official channels. Locals needed food. I’m not familiar with how the Apartheid regime handled food, but it sounds like it was withheld because of politics.

Deep Roots

 Whether or not South Africa’s situation on food scarcity is relatable to America, I can’t say. But taking care of those in need is smart policy in any country. Communities thrive when they support each other. Like those vertical planting towers that are so ubiquitous at Food on the Move. Water and nutrients trickle down from the top and feed the seeds all the way down. It's an efficient system when space is limited. 

My task today was to power wash the planting towers. I got a close look at them. 

Eight-foot plastic tubes with holes in them, serve as a plant towers for vertical growing. I included a picture at the top. They're filled with dirt from top to bottom and the seeds are placed in the upward facing extensions. The roots develop inside the tower and the plant grows out the side. The towers get gunked with dirt after a planting cycle and need to be sprayed out. It sounds easy, but the tricky part was trying to pull out the remaining dry roots. They don’t want to leave.

 High pressure water gets most of it, but you need a ramrod to knock out the roots that made a comfortable home inside. It took us a few minutes to finds something like our ramrod, a shovel handle.

Rain Soaked Morning

I had two companions, a father and daughter. We worked outside on a concrete slab and cleaned one after the other, getting sloppy wet and dirty the whole time. At first we thought the volunteer day might not happen. Tulsans woke up to a heavy storm this morning. We've seen too many this year. For whatever reason it’s been a rainy year. The thunderstorm subsided shortly after 7:30 and everything went on as planned. I can’t say that every group went ahead though. 

While filling out the Love Day registration, I noticed a few landscaping options to sign up for. It wasn’t exactly a mowing kind of day. After the first 30 minutes of work, it started raining again. I’m not sure if we were more wet from the power washer or the rain. It didn’t matter in either case, we had a job to do.

Why We Serve

I think we could’ve stayed all day. The farm had more towers that needed to be cleaned. They had a whole trailer full of them. Since it only took 3 of us to share the power washing duties, the other volunteers pulled weeds and harvested some of the vegetables. I would’ve liked to see the operation a little closer. But our washing kept us away from seeing the rest of the place. I’m sure the regulars that worked the farm would’ve been happy to show me around. But after the cleaning and the rain, everyone headed for the parking lot. I didn’t want to be the only one hanging around.

Most of these Love Day’s are characterized by brutal heat. It’s July in Oklahoma after all. If there is a silver lining with rain, it’s that the temperatures stay low (70’s) and the sun hides behind the clouds. It might be humid but it’s manageable. As long as the lightning and monsoon rains don’t overwhelm, it’s possible to do a little outdoor work and not wilt like a daisy.

 These community volunteer efforts make everyone involved feel good about their service. I can’t speak for everyone, but I usually have a pang of guilt over doing this only once a year. It’s not like serve opportunities don’t exist. I think there is even a Saturday serve option available on the small group finder. Without even looking, I can promise it’s the least attended of any of the groups. Not because people are terrible and selfish and uncaring. But because it’s not glamorous. It’s labor intensive and messy. It’s a little too much like real work.

But it’s also appreciated in a way that food deliveries and car service and back to school shopping sprees aren’t.

Conclusion

Some people have a knack for building, repairing and cleaning. Remodeling a person’s home in particular, adds a kind of dignified thrill that isn’t possible any other way. Groceries are great too, but adding a bedroom, a deck or a bathroom is a gift that elevates the occupants. An old home with inefficient windows and paper thin walls can feel luxurious with a decent remodel. Your neighborhood is the same but the place you spend the most time is suddenly new. What could be better?

If it sounds like I’ve been there before, it’s because I have. Members of the church I attended as a kid did a full remodel on our family home. They asked electricians, roofers, plumbers, dry wall workers and general contractors to pitch in on a particular day. It took 2 full days but the result was impressive--a fully remodeled house from basement to attic. I was in the Army at the time, but I saw the full scale of it when I came for a visit. 

God works through communities. I’ll never forget that.   

“Don’t do anything for selfish purposes, but with humility think of others as better than yourselves. 4Instead of each person watching out for their own good, watch out for what is better for others.” Philippians 2:3-4

Bunker Busters and F Bombs: Iran isn't Going Away

 

Trump avoids War but Gets Sidetracked by Foreign Conflicts

The news is usually my source of writing inspiration, but I’m struggling to understand what’s going on in the Middle East right now. The only thing I have is my instincts and they’re telling me to pump the brakes on this ceasefire. Trump isn’t falling into the war trap that so many seem to be pushing him towards. He agreed to destroy the nuclear facilities in Iran with bunker busting bombs. That part was successful, we assume. But just before the ceasefire was supposed to begin, Iran broke the ceasefire.

Israel retaliated. It’s not clear to me if Israel retaliated for the missiles that hit a US airbase in Qatar, or if they retaliated for an attack on their own soil. Trump was pissed when reporters asked him about it. He said Israel and Iran don’t know what the ‘F’ they’re doing. After supposedly getting both countries to agree to a ceasefire, they unloaded their munitions. After Trump’s tweet the internet got silly. MAGA types started posting the tweet and bragging about DJT’s “Skillz”. I count myself among the MAGA faithful but this was seriously stupid. I wanted to scream “This is the Middle East; it’s never over!”. Frankly Trump was a bit too eager to claim victory himself. Using dopey language about no more hate and peace and harmony in the region. 

He wants to move past this quickly and I don't blame him.

Trump believes everyone can move past old hatreds. Just toss in a few incentives and get the business interests on board. Who wouldn’t want to make a deal and start developing condo’s in the Levant eh? For all of his straight talk and no nonsense attitude, he seems to genuinely think he can make lasting peace. But the US should be done with the Middle East if the military is asked to intervene. Israel should remain and ally. Saudi Arabia should be a business partner that we keep at a distance. There is a mess to deal with in Ukraine after the last administration, foolishly pushed that country into an unwinnable war.

Trump told the world that the Ukraine was would be over as shortly after his term started. That’s probably the biggest misstep of his presidency so far. It’s clear to me that he wants to be a domestic president and focus on spending, immigration and law enforcement. He gets very irritated with these foreign conflicts and sees them as a distraction from his domestic agenda. A president that wants to focus on his own country is a welcome relief, but these foreign conflicts keep pulling his attention away. Like Michael Corleone, every time he thinks he's out...they pull him right back in. 

But the good news from this so called '12 day war' is that he seems to have sidelined the neocons this time. He agreed to destroy the nuclear facility in Fordow but not do the regime change that the Israelis wanted.

Israel has every right to demand regime change in the region. But they must do it alone, and they clearly won’t. As time frame’s go, it’s probably right for it. Iran is weak, their proxies in Yemen are beaten and their army in Lebanon (Hezbollah) was destroyed by the IDF. But we’ve given so much blood in the Middle East that I think it’s time for someone else. The Israelis are natural allies, but Trump made the right call to avoid doing more that bombing the facilities. As a concession to not demanding regime change, it’s a better option. 

I hope this latest cease fire and subsequent bombing shakes Trump out of his naivete. At the very least, stop calling every minor statement from world leaders a win. Foreign leaders lie. There is a reason why president’s avoid doing “deals” in the Middle East. Those people are full of ancient hatreds and deep resentment going back thousands of years. I’m making a cultural statement, not a racial one.

I recognize that America is deeply involved and ignoring these conflicts isn’t possible. But the president should be above grandiose statements that fall apart in less than 24 hours. The worst part is that anyone older than 30 could tell you this would likely happen. But even MAGA voters get over their skis all the time on this stuff. They love their big Trump-as-badass memes. But they look silly in no time flat. I think it’s time for some humility all around.  

On Blogging and the World since 2020

 Complaining About the Deep State and the Nature of Blogging

I’ve lost my nerve a bit on writing. Not that I’m not doing it. I am, but my blog pieces are getting further and further apart. 

Putting something on my website happens like twice a month now. It’s a serious fall from the previous 10 years or so. The first couple of years I was still finding my footing. I don’t count 2014 or 2015. They’re both a blip on the radar of a blog that was still finding an identity. Did it ever find it? I’m sure a clever person could scan it and find similar points of interest or a singular ‘voice’ as the writers say. The topics changed quite a bit, or at least I thought. Politics, especially foreign policy, held my interest so much in the early days that I shared my thoughts. Like most bloggers most of my opinions were like anyone else’s, off the mark by a wider margin than I’d like to admit.

That’s hardly the point. It’s really the experience and accountability I was after.

Know It All

I don’t think you’ll find a persistent arrogant or obtuse tone throughout. I tried to clean up most of pieces though the editing process. Smugness is a crutch for young writers fresh off their media studies class. I won’t deny that I had a touch of that. I will deny that they overwhelmed my writing as to make it sickening for the reader to consume, like a fountain coke mixed with too much syrup. There are times when I went too hard I’m sure. But I always tried to sound reasonable. I hope I do in real life as well. Hopefully I was smart enough to recognize that not all writing holds up well over the years. One day’s ‘SOB’ is another day’s ‘Honest Abe’. How many times has public opinion shifted on Kayne West? In the last 5 years or so the world’s changed a lot and I’m thinking differently about everything.

Know Even Less

I said 5 years because it’s about when Covid hit and we were never the same. The world didn’t change really, it just got revealed to be something darker and uglier than I think I understood before. The stolen election of 2020 was the first pillar of American greatness to fall. Such an obvious theft should have been a wake up for all Americans. For many it was, but it’s hard to believe that when your guy won the election. I’m not sure I would’ve listened either if Trump had won on such shaky grounds. But to me it showed that the deep state runs the ‘important’ affairs of life. The president doesn’t (can’t) do much in the way of changing policy. Congress doesn’t either, by the way. An Executive Order (EO) does not a policy make. Someone needs to put it into practice.

 The Constitution was a brilliant piece of legislation and even worked for a time. We’re off it now, same as the gold standard. The language persists, we still use phrases like separation of powers and judicial review. But they’re applied haphazardly if at all.  

Know For Sure

We say deep state now because it sounds more sinister. It’s also a better phrase than bureaucracy because it suggests an entrenched, network of shadowy figures with malice and greed in their hearts. A bureaucracy is just an inefficient blob of well-meaning civil servants. It’s the guy at the DMV who didn’t approve your permit because you didn’t fill out form 1455 correctly. The deep state includes those people and adds NGOs (Non Governmental Organizations) and private companies. A lot aren’t even government employees. They contract with certain federal authorities and pull down millions of dollars through various cut outs. The exposure of the USAID, via DODGE, and its nefarious dealings is one such example.

The deep state is an impossible network to quantify but it does have access to a lot of money. In that way they’re a bit like the KnightsTemplar in the Middle Ages. A group of professional soldiers started a small Christian army to protected the territory acquired by the Crusaders. They provided safe passage for traveling Knights who warred against Muslims in the Holy Land. They set up banking houses and issued legal tender all over Europe so Crusaders didn’t have to carry large sums of money. They became incredibly wealthy with their private army and land holdings. Eventually they emerged with their own order, customs and ceremonies. They were a government unto themselves. What started out as charity of the church, turned into a group of wealthy mercenaries who dictated terms to kings and rulers through their banks. Philip IV eventually had them arrested on charges of blasphemy and sodomy. He pillaged their holdings and dissolved the order.

Conclusion

It's not a perfect comparison but it works. Like the knights, the deep state has a vast network that expands to a vast number of interests. The only way to get at unraveling their influence is to hold individuals accountable for their crimes. Or at the very least, threaten someone who is obviously guilty and make them give up names the way the cops do in mob movies. The lack of any real punishment is why the deep corruption persists. I’m not suggesting they be held accountable for false crimes the way the Templars were. But their power should be reined in and their kingdom taken away.

The Knights Templar didn’t lose their power until Jerusalem fell in the 13^th century. Without a controlling army in the Holy Land, the Templars lost their reason for being. The deep state is full of little fiefdoms with a ready supply of funding and a legal system that covers their flank. I had hoped Dodge would be the beginning of the end of their reason for being. Sadly, it’s going to take more than that. But it will happen.

The lack of real understanding about political issues is why the blog has changed so much. It’s hard to write about things you don’t fully understand. I do feel like 'first principles' will focus less on day to day politicking going forward.

 

 

 

 

"A Runner's High: My Life in Motion" A Review

 

 

Dean Karnazes and the Crazy World of Ultramarathon Running

I had to google Dean Karnazes after I read his book “A Runner’s High: My Life In Motion”. I picked it up off the shelf at my local Barnes & Noble on whim. I wasn’t particularly looking for a book on running or even a book with a sports theme. But after getting lost in fiction and checking out the new authors, I traipsed back to the sports section. Sport themed books can be a mix of biography and history, business and self-help. I wanted something easy to absorb, not a deep dive. Golf had the most authors per square inch but running managed a few slots. The first one I grabbed turned out to be a textbook. It was a detailed plan for a running program with tips in between. Nothing against schedules and planning but I wanted something more personal.

That’s when I grabbed this Dean Karnazes book on ultramarathon running, his 4^th to date.

Looking Back 

Now I’m not an ultramarathon runner and I have no interest in it. But I love jogging and even marathon running. I wanted to know what got him started in this insane sport. Maybe he would answer the “Why would someone do this?” question. He does in part. But this book is an examination of the life of an aging athlete, finding a new way to endure with a different set of goals. A good chunk of it is looking back on a brilliant career and savoring the success while training for the Western States 100. Along the way he examines if he’s been a distant father, a loving husband and good son. There are some touching moments with his dad, a man who still accompanies him to his races and provides that much needed encouragement.

Dean Karnazes has a few books under his belt already. I didn’t read it but, "Ultramarathon Man: Confessions of an All night Runner” was a best seller in 2006. It put ultramarathon running into the public conscious. For years it was an obscure sport that only endurance junkies had anything to do with. It likely wasn’t the only book or film that did this, but it certainly made regular people aware of it. I still think it’s a sport for endurance junkies, it’s just that we have more of them now. 100 miles at any pace through the open desert or woods is a crazy thing to do. Certain people need to push themselves beyond the limits of what even endurance runners go through.

A Very Different Sport

In Runner’s High, Dean settles into the reality of his age and what’s still possible given the miles he’s put on his body. Understandably, there is a lot of comparison to his former self and his former successes. As a Western States alum, he is acutely aware of his progress when seen in contrast to his previous performance. Spoiler alert, he isn’t the runner he used to be. He was 58 or 59 when this book was published. That’s over 15 years since his first book. That’s a lot of miles for an aging athlete. But the same grit that got him through the 100 milers when he was a younger man is still there. He just needs more of it. He nearly drops out on multiple occasions but manages just enough push to finish.

Endurance running takes otherworldly mental toughness. It’s one advantage that older athletes have on younger ones. Dean doesn’t say this in the book but it feels true. Your body won’t move as fast or recover as quickly, but if you’ve finished before you’ll do it again. It won’t be pretty, but you’ve solved a big piece of the puzzle on how to complete a big race while exhausted. Having others there to cheer you on helps a lot. Help and support are difficult to measure, but essential for finishing strong. Karnezes gives a lot of credit to his family and friends for joining him. During the Western States race, he encounters a few former runners who help out as volunteers at the aid stations. Their encouragement and motivation is often the difference in the late stages of an ultramarathon when you’re starting to fade. His son Nick and both his parents, along with multiple volunteers, got him over the hump.

Conclusion

The book is less than 250 pages. It’s light on detail and doesn’t bog down on race particulars. There is just enough of his personal life in there to keep this a human story. Dean explains well the emotional highs and lows of ultra racing and provides the reader with a reason for why he runs. It won’t make sense to people who don’t run though. You’ll get an answer to the question “Why would someone do this?” but you won’t like the answer. It just doesn’t make sense to most people and that’s OK. You will understand, and feel, his passion for this niche sport though.

It may even make you start jogging whatever your age.

The New Pope and World Wide Christianity

 

New Pope, New Church, New Day for Christians?

I guess we have a new pope. The white smoke billowed out from the roof in the Vatican earlier this week. An American, he grew up in Chicago and traveled all over the world for most of his life. Naturally, in the service of the catholic church. I’m not a catholic but I do realize to most people, the pope reflects Christianity to rest of the world. It’s not fair of course. Martin Luther’s criticism was about the sale of indulgences and papal authority. In other words, the church as intermediary between God and man. As the only real reflection of the church in the West, the list of grievances was long. But the core complaints could be described as men standing in for God.

We were meant to have a relationship with God the Father. The Roman Catholic church likes to have intermediaries, priests and cardinals, to interpret the divine for us. I’m not dumping on faithful Catholics. I’m merely stating facts about the top-down authority of the church. I don’t imagine the masses are much different in structure than it was a hundred years ago. The biggest difference being mass in the vernacular. A good many would like to go back to the Latin version exclusively.

The adherence to tradition is admirable, we live in an age where the gospel is always being challenged. If the church needs to update according to a moving cultural target then why bother with the church? But institutions become corrupt over time. Reform is seriously needed. That’s where I’ll leave my criticism though. I’m not Catholic. I won’t drop bombs just because I can see how broken the walls are.

My people are the Evangelicals. We’ve got our own problems. Actually, we’ve got more problems than the Catholics. We picked up our penchant for schisms from the protestant godfather himself, Martin Luther. To be fair to Luther though, he was excommunicated. We split churches along every conceivable doctrine, practice and eschatological theory. Sometimes it’s just a split over personalities. This isn’t exactly schism worthy, but it does reflect the Protestant comfort with going it alone. That’s not a bad thing necessarily. Jesus’s idea of the church (ecclesia) is a body of believers that reach the lost with the gospel. Traditionally it’s easier to reach them through an organized ministry. The sending out of missionaries, here and abroad, is easier by pooling resources.

But it doesn’t always need to look like this. In some countries, small groups of believers might be more effective at reaching the lost. Large churches can be a target for government censorship around the world. It’s much more difficult to patrol small churches that split constantly and add to the numbers of the faithful.

We’re to increase the number of believers and not just grow the institutional church. Every Christian should understand the difference.

 We need an orthodox view of the Bible and salvation and eternal life, but cultural differences will always exist. There is plenty of room for that in God’s Kingdom. But something like the Nicene Creed for a statement of principles should form the basis of our collective faith.

The “We” in the ‘we have a new pope” refers to the world. The pope is basically a world leader. I thought an African pope would be the best selection. They take a traditional view on marriage and oppose the LGBT influence in the culture. I’ve seen a few social media posts from this guy they selected, Robert Prevost. It’s typical anti-Trump and anti-Vance stuff. It’s early stages so far. Probably it’s not fair to slap a label on the guy just yet. But if he’s a typical Left-wing Cardinal, then it’s further proof that the Catholic church is focused on all the wrong issues.

Pope Francis talked about climate change more than the persecuted Christians in China. He made a morally reprehensible deal in 2018 with the Chinese Communist Government. The CCP gets to appoint bishops to posts in the country, while the Vatican can overrule the choices. Francis cut the legs out from under the loyal church in China. At the same time, he turned it into a place for CCP stooges to advance.

One line of thinking has it that church leaders should stay out of politics. But everything today is political. The scripture should be our guide in all worldly affairs. But most of the work of feeding the poor and winning souls for Christ is done at the ground level. In an imperfect age, the best we can pray for is that all Christian leaders put a spotlight on those issues first, while holding fast to the inerrancy of scripture.

The best version to date for what a Christian church should be is found in Acts 2:46-47 “So continuing daily with one accord in the temple and breaking bread from house to house, they ate their food with gladness and simplicity of heart, praising God and having favor with all the people. And the Lord added to the church daily those who were being saved.”

Large institutional churches aren’t necessarily a bad thing. But where they’re focused on boutique (secular) issues like climate change and mass immigration we should ignore their direction.

 

Musing about Writing and Wasting Time

 

Writing is a Discipline that Needs Strict Parameters

It seems like I don’t have a lot of interest in writing anymore. At least not to the level that I did a few years ago. What is the culprit? Could it be that work takes up a larger part of my life, to the degree that I have less time? Not really, my responsibility has picked up and so has the number of accounts I manage. But it hasn’t added to my workload significantly. Most jobs have seasonal ups and downs that dictate how many hours you work. Mine is no different. Summers and springs are busy. The rest of the year settles into a type of normalcy, in a sense.

I should probably apologize for all the question begging that this post is bound to heap up like mulch on a freshly planted rose garden. Just think of these are rhetorical questions the writer is trying out on himself.

Am I occupied with other interests? Again, not really. I’ve had a consistent gym/fitness routine for the last 5 years or so. It changes a little from week to week but not dramatically. If anything, I’ve matured in both my running goals and weight lifting. The running is certainly easier to measure. New times can be compared against older times and I can see how much weight I’ve lost. Modern gyms have these full body composition scanners that give you all sorts of indicators. You can learn which side of your body is stronger, what your bone density is like and what an ideal weight would be.

For the first two months of the year I was busy studying for my personal training certification test. But last month I passed the test and received the certificate. I still don’t have a job, but I’m looking. Here too though, I’m not overwhelmed with a part time job.

 I might be mistaking my lack of writing interest for just plain laziness. Sometimes I like to dress up the words instead of looking at the thing straightaway. Laziness becomes “lack of interest” or “lack of passion”. Those sound high minded. No one ever admits to being lazy but it’s a common problem. Creative types talk about “writer’s block” and “creativity deserts” when the problem is much more carnal. I made up the one about creativity deserts but I kind of like it. I’ll have to work it into a conversation at some point.

Television gets the best of us sometimes and if we’re honest, we probably watch too much. Here I’m counting YouTube as TV, as it takes the same form in my life. Hours of wasted viewing on the silly, the weird and the angry, encompass evenings that I’ll never get back. YouTube is at least highly curated where TV is just a scatter shot of whatever’s in the barrel. If we don’t like the show we turn it off. YouTube allows the viewer to scrub past ads and click off. It doesn’t let you off though, it’s going to suggest something similar. Really they don’t suggest anything. They just play the next adjacent video, ready or not. For me it skews right and newsy with a dash of funny. I end up with a lot of Megan Kelly and Tim Dillon clips.

It gets in the way of writing but not too much. It used to be that I couldn’t go more than 2 days without a writing fix. I didn’t update my blog every other day, but I did feel the need to journal some event or attitude. When I couldn’t think of anything significant I’d practice. These practice sessions allowed my mind to wander. A lot of my blog posts started off that way. I’d start a mental thread about sports or politics that slowly turned into a one about family or Christianity. It’s not the best way to write but it can be fun. The best way is through narrow parameters. The stricter the focus the more creative the essay.

The mind craves discipline. This seems counterintuitive. Don’t the best artists and writers need to be free to let their minds wander? No, you lose focus without definitive goals. It might take longer to arrange your thoughts and discard ideas that don’t fit the limits, but you’ll be able to avoid wasting time on unnecessary trails. I used to write blog posts for business websites through a 3^rd party marketing company. Perusing through the list of requested blog posts, I noticed some were brief while others, very detailed. The companies with long, specific items and keywords were the easiest to write for. It’s like they cut the extra fat off the steak before they brought it to me. The websites that listed one or two instructions didn’t know what they wanted and hoped the writer would come up with something creative.

That’s OK if you understand the industry you’re writing for. But it’s rarely the case. Not to mention, the ones with marginal instructions were quick to fire my copy back for revision. It’s like they were saying “No not like that”. They could’ve saved us both some time with tight instructions and a short list of what they didn’t want.

I exaggerated when I said it seems like I don’t have any interest in writing. But a lot of the old tricks aren’t working anymore. I’ve always believed that writing is like other disciplines in life, it needs to be forced until it becomes routine. It’s not secret that I mentioned fitness at the beginning. The most important thing that fitness has taught me is that improvement must become routine. If it’s true for weightlifting then it’s true for creative pursuits. Why do I seem to fall in and out of “interest” in writing? Because it’s ceased to be routine. The reason doesn’t really matter.

Salvation is the Good News of Easter

 

Easter Commission: Reflecting on God’s Faithfulness

Easter forces reflection in me of God’s goodness in big and small seasons of life. That reflection fulfills the message of Christ to ‘go into all the world’.

In Tulsa, there is a neon cross that looms large on the West side of the Arkansas river. It’s visible in the dark from the bike path that stretches the length of the river. On occasion I’ll do my early run there. In the winter especially the sun doesn’t pop above the horizon until after 7:00. Most of my route is in the dark. I can’t tell where the cross is located. The west side is full of industrial parks and factories. There are a few churches, but none big enough to mount a cross that size. The bright contrast between light and dark makes me take notice.

Healing of the Body

It reminds me of times when I was in trouble and God rescued me. Those memories still evoke strong feelings. Difficult seasons stay in our minds long after the stress has subsided. What’s left is the faith we built through it. How many times did I run out of money and eat saltines until pay day? There was always a free meal I hadn’t counted on or a refund from a forgotten transaction.

I’ve had a few health issues too. I had severe asthma as a kid. Being able to run like I do now wasn’t a sure thing. But I witnessed God’s faithfulness through healing and restoration. In adult life I took seriously the instruction to ‘pray for those who persecute you’. This one I resisted hard. God’s way of living is contrary to ours. It takes years of retraining to develop a willing heart. But when I complied, I noticed a positive change in the person who created such difficulty for me.  

When we let Him, He brings to mind His victories in our lives. No detail is too small.

Promise of Restoration

The company I work for used to sew patches on school jackets. I called a customer one day to come pick up his jacket after we had worked on it. In the two days before he came to the store, a shoplifter walked in and stole it right off the finished rack. We didn’t realize it was gone until he’d left. I had to tell the customer that a thief made off with it. That made me look irresponsible; I don’t think the customer believed my story. I asked God to make it right. Amazingly someone spotted the thief with the jacket a few weeks later. I was vindicated.

Nothing sharpens your focus like hardship. Did you ever get separated from your parents in a grocery store as a kid? You could feel the panic start to rise, your temperature spiked and your breathing quickened. You forgot about the magazine on the rack that stole your attention not long before. Nothing mattered like finding mom and dad. All distraction fell away instantly as you zeroed in on being rescued. Eventually it worked out and you were wiser about wandering off the next time.

Like kids we all tend to wander off sometimes. Startling events bring us into focus and strip away everything that’s not critical to solving the problem.

Finding the Lost

That was the situation in Acts 16 when Paul and Silas were arrested for preaching the gospel. The jailer faced a startling event that changed his world in an instant.

“Sirs, what must I do to be saved?” (NKJV)

An earthquake had just shaken the ground and loosened all the chains of the prisoners. Paul reassured him that no one had left and that he shouldn’t harm himself. It’s a recognition of the plight he’s in. Nothing is left but the truth of salvation. The world as he knew it changed in an instant. If not for a word from Paul, he would’ve taken his own life.

His security in the prison fell away in an instant. He recognized the immediacy of the moment and surrendered his life. Some of us coast along without an earthquake moment. We aren’t guaranteed one either. We don’t always get a chance to see our situation in stark relief. Jesus scolded the elders (Mark 8:11-13) for not being able to discern the times. It’s up to us as well, to recognize the fleeting nature of life on earth. It’s less painful to learn from another’s example. The jailer that Paul baptized, made sure his family was also baptized.

“What must I do to be saved?” should force us to examine our lives with eternity in mind. The cross still has the power to connect with the soul and bring about repentance. It still reminds us of the ultimate sacrifice and the innocent blood.

Conclusion

If you’ve wandered off and felt the immediacy of a scary moment, there’s hope in the cross. Even before your frantic search for help, God was looking for you. There are reminders everywhere of His faithfulness. It just might take a neon cross in the darkness to get your attention.

Go tell someone today. He is Risen! Happy Easter

 

Will DOGE Actually Work?

 

DOGE Saves the Country, Or the Fiscal Floor Caves In

I’ve wanted to write something about DOGE (Department of Government Efficiency) for a while. There is an underlying sense that I shouldn’t get too excited about it. I tell myself not to fall for it. You’re never going to watch the government cut its waste or spending by a significant amount. The spending rot is too deep. Best to wait for the floor to fall out from under you and rebuild the house. The termites have eaten through too much of it. Yes, it's a pessimistic view. I have a twinge of guilt every time I think about it. But remember, the staggering amount graft that is uncovered on a daily basis props up someone. Actually it’s propping up a whole lot of someone’s.

DOGE is what it looks like to attack the corruption in spending from the outside. It can’t happen from inside.

Inside Baseball

Back in 2010, Senators Alan Simpson (Wyoming) and Erskine Bowles (North Carolina) put together a committee to “study” how to reduce the debt. They correctly evaluated the problems and presented a plan. The plans were sensible but the political will wasn’t there. These commissions only ever serve to provide travel opportunities and a nice pay day for fortunate bureaucrats. Nothing actually gets cut. No one needs to do a year long study to figure this out. Blue ribbon commissions find information we already know and find a way to get paid from the process. It's a neat trick.

It’s impossibly hard from a political standpoint, much easier to pay everyone off with projects for their communities and sign off on another bloated budget. It’s why my ‘wait for the floor to cave in’ is an understandable response.

Outside Baseball

But if Trump is different and Elon is different, maybe there is hope. If nothing else, DOGE is a true outsider approach. No insiders were ever going to fix it. Mafia members occasionally rat on each other, but they also take on new identities, move to the heartland and take up farming. Exposing corruption is dangerous. Make no mistake, this is corruption. And to have such a serious group of men sharing the responsibility of taking it to the deep state is very encouraging. If you haven’t seen the interview on Fox News with Brett Bair I suggest you watch it. All of these men are accomplished in the private sector. They’ve all volunteered to help reorganize federal spending and show where the fraud and waste is. No surprises yet, it’s overwhelmingly fraud so far.

Defining Leadership

At no point during the interview did I think any of these guys were press hounds. They’re sober about the future of the country and patriotic enough to do something about it. Musk put a target on his back by supporting Trump after the Pennsylvania assassination attempt. That gave others the courage to do likewise and share some of the burden of being called Nazis or Fascist's or whatever. I’m much more confident after hearing from the team. It’s easy to be cynical about motives, but they seem to care deeply about the future of the country and how much has been stolen from future generations.

Musk recognized that this administration is serious about putting the country on a track to fiscal sanity again. No businessman wants to give voice to an untrustworthy president or give support where it won’t be reciprocated. It’s risky. It’s especially risky for Republican administrations because the press can ruin you. We’re seeing some of that with the bombing of his Tesla dealers and desecration of cars in parking lots. I’m sure he knew this kind of thing was possible. But he can rely on an administration that actually punishes crime and backs American business. 

The Twitter Takeover

Buying Twitter was a watershed moment for Elon Musk. He entered the political fray and if he had any illusions about an American left that just wanted free speech, he was quickly disabused of that notion.

He let a handful of journalists (Taibbi, Shellenberger) comb through Twitter’s databases. Matt Taibbi in particular showed how the federal government was silencing conservative voices through implicit threats. Twitter was basically the communication arm of the FBI. In a lot of ways, DODGE feels like a much larger version of the same idea. Expose fraud in the federal government and show how corruption works at scale. And what a scale it is? Twitter prepared him for this. But if Twitter was an on base single to right field, DOGE is a grand slam to win the game.

Discovering wasteful spending at the federal level isn’t a tough thing to do. The late Senator Coburn, Oklahoma’s own, used to release a Wastebook every few years on government waste. We knew about the bridges to nowhere and the silly research grants for video games studies. But no one was specifically targeted or held to account. The sense you get from reading them is irritation at the lack of oversight. You can almost hear the zany Benny Hill music playing in the background as the list of dumb spending is read aloud. The tone of the report though is ‘common guys, we can do better'. But Senators have to get reelected. They can scratch the surface and point in a direction, but they can’t name names. 

Nothing against Coburn, he was an honest man. But where he grabbed the low hanging fruit of waste, Musk is going for the jugular. 

Like Simpson and Bowles, real change happens from outside because it has to. 2025 is going to be a rocky year with a lot of naming of names if DOGE is anything like what it needs to be. It will all be for naught though if guilty parties aren’t charged and we don’t have a sensible plan for budgeting. Grifters that feed off the public teat should be punished severely, or America will be overrun with them.

Conclusion

I’m usually pessimistic about the attempt to reign in a federal system. But I’m optimistic for at least some big moves going forward. What does that look like? Can we actually reduce the fraud by a significant margin and half the budget? Will known fraudsters be held to account and serve as avatars for other, would be-con artists who would fleece the taxpayers? The relentless exposure is good news so far. Had Elon Musk done enough work to allow DOGE to function with a manager once he is gone? That day might come sooner than the May deadline.

Every political fight like this comes down to willpower. If not, we wait for the floor to give way and work on a rebuild plan.