Consistency Over Programs: Work Outs for Normies

 

Stick To a Program and See the Gains

I’ve been poking around on YouTube to find some fitness gurus and running coaches. I’ll spare you the surprise, there are millions. My query was about jogging and weightlifting together. Normally you have to pick one. The two disciplines work at cross purposes. Running is about endurance, slow twitch muscle fibers and oxygen for energy. Weigh lifting is about size, fast twitch muscle fibers and anaerobic energy.

Motivations

Long distance running is newer for me. Not that I’m a dedicated gym bro with a massive frame and trophies in a clear case, but lifting has been a regular part of my life for years. I started in earnest while in college. I’d tried to get a routine going in the Army but I was too lazy. I ran short, timed distances in the Army. Once I got out however, jogging meant going hard for two miles at the end of a workout. Nothing wrong with that of course. But the older I got the more I wanted to keep the pounds off and stay lean. I never imagined I’d be running marathons or studying up on heart rate zones. The more time I spent improving my pace the less I spent building strength. Today though, I’m back in the gym working on the physique again and jogging in between. That calls for a different kind of training.

I’m not sure it’s a great idea to do both but I’m on this course anyway.

Inspirations

I found a guy on YouTube who looks like a body builder and runs marathons. He’s not a giant but he does have a lot more muscle than your average runner. I’m sure he takes a lot of substances and dials his food in to the calorie. The primary piece of information I got from him is to train hard in season and back off when out of season. This “season” term is mine and not his. The idea is to focus hard on running before a race and fill in some gaps with heavy lifting. After the race, switch it up. Do heavy weights more frequently when no race is in sight. It’s basically the hybrid model I’ve used without his orderly schedule. I’m sure he has a detailed workout plan. Mine is more general but the idea is the same. I stopped doing legs at the gym almost a month before my race. 

My legs were tired and sore after a crushing leg workout, not ideal for marathon training. This made running a miserable task.

My race was a month ago and I’ve since started doing a leg set again once per week. I don’t think I’ll incorporate more than one day for legs but I won’t promise anything. I’m hoping that my exhaustion after a long run is connected to my weak lower half. If strength training can bulk up my hamstrings and calves and make a 16 mile run feel more like 8 miles I can make serious gains in my time. This will be the year to find out how well it works. Right now I’m in for squats or deadlifts every Monday.

In addition to heavier weights, I’m running at least one less day per week. That works out to 3 days and not 4. This way I can increase muscle strength in what is basically an off season for me. The summer mornings mean I can run outdoors before work at least once a week. Obviously, I can run outdoors during the winter too but I enjoy the early sunlight even with the hot temperatures. It’s manageable even in the heat of July if I run early enough.

Conclusion

I get discouraged when I hear about the gains from some of these YouTube guys. It feels like I could do more, or should be getting better. 

My improvements come in slow, methodical steps. I’m not the guy that’s going to go drop an hour off his time in a year. I have a friend who did. Some of us have to find value in the small wins or we’ll get frustrated. The particular work out program is less important than if you’re still improving years from now. I measure success by how long I stick with something. The gains will come if you stick with it. Whether you run or lift, find a sport or exercise you like and build on it. Make it a goal to look back in a year on the progress no matter how small. Then do it again in 5 years. It’s hard enough to commit to exercise of any kind for more than a season. But if you do, the gains will be there. That’s what I’ve learned.

I John 4: The Spirit of Truth and The Spirit of Error

 

How to Recognize Truth and Error

The New Testament letters must be read with an understanding of the urgency with which they were written. Christianity, this new belief, was constantly under attack from both the Romans and from false doctrines. John takes such care to explain the nature of this spiritual reality in which new believers find themselves. The truth is as easy to recognize today as it was in John’s time.   

 “Every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is of God, and every spirit that does not confess that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is not of God.” (verse 2-3) This might seem confusing if you have no exposure to scripture. With all the cultures around the world and all their spiritual history, how can all spirits be either Christ or Antichrist—truth or error?

We Can Know the Truth

Every region of the world has its own history of gods, idols, traditions and pieties. It’s human creativity that gives these ‘gods’ their characteristics. We assign stories and personalities to deities that exist in the spirit realm. Ancient Greece had Zeus, Apollo and Aphrodite, China and India had Buddhism and its beliefs. Others had monotheistic religions like Islam. I could write an entire book on world religions and not begin to cover all the particulars. You’d think John would leave room for such variety. After all, most of these deities had a presence in the cultures, thousands of years before Christ.

But the variety of spirits doesn’t change their origin or nature. It doesn’t matter how many different weeds cover your lawn, they’re all infectious and designed to kill off healthy grass. It’s in their nature. They seek to take over the whole yard. If you want healthy green grass that chokes out weeds you have to spread good seed. You can use fertilizer to kill the invaders but eventually they’ll come back. The most effective way is to keep the healthy grass full. So too, when the gospel spreads in earnest it pushes out false spirits.  

The best news from John is that it’s possible to tell spiritual truth from error. We don’t have to fumble around this life like a man in a dark cave, searching for truth. We recognize it through its confession. We see its plain truth because it pushes out error and illuminates our steps in an unfamiliar place.

“And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent the Son as Savior of the world. Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God.” (verse 14-15)

We Can Spread the Gospel

I’ve been watching the series Shogun on Hulu. I’m only a few episodes in but a few things are clear right away. TV shows and movies are essentially atheistic in their spiritual messaging. Anything dealing with power politics will argue that money and control drive the vehicle of history. It treats spiritual/religious belief as either cultural decoration or political manipulation. Christianity is usually shown as an occupying force, a foreign weed that chokes out native soil. The history of European conquest is certainly bloody and reckless. Missionaries were often used by their host nations as tools of imperialism. This is the situation in Shogun during the late 17^th century. But the spread of Christianity has less to do with the people spreading it, and more to do with its undeniable truth.

We’ve been hearing the same cynical story about Christ and colonization for too long. Partly it’s because of our ‘everyone was racist before about the year 2000’ kind of ethics. But Christianity brought civilizing aspects to cultures that had no experience with it. Science, medicine and literacy were introduced with missionaries. Translating the Bible into the local languages, the centrality of the family and planting new churches were hallmarks of Christian missions.

But people are flawed and their message is often drowned out by the politics of the day. Shogun shows the ugly side of Christians and their sociopolitical interests. But it’s only after the Spanish have gained a foothold through territorial ambition. There is little difference between a pirate and priest, both are Christian in the national sense and foreigners. But it’s not likely the first few missionaries were anything but accommodating to the Japanese. They couldn’t afford to be reckless or arrogant in such a strict, brutal culture. The early Jesuits eventually started ordaining local priests, recognizing the importance of engagement.

But the gospel makes an impact despite the mission or the missionaries. It wouldn’t work any other way. It’s a universal truth.

We Can Rescue Culture

The biggest difference in America is our lack of state sponsored missionary work. Churches still take on the burden of training up and sending out, but America is effectively a place where Christianity is consumed with infighting. Its distracted by institutional corruption and doctrinal disagreement. People as different as Rob Bell and Eric Metaxas both claim to be Christians. Their beliefs couldn’t be further apart. Bell teaches a ‘good feeling’ doctrine with biblical language, Metaxas a traditional scholarly approach.

  Political realities have started to overwhelm the underlying truth of scripture. Those who profess an orthodox view are held out of large spheres of life, whether government or business. Denominational loyalty shifts with hot button cultural issues like abortion and homosexuality. We’re on the cusp of an upheaval.

Come to think of it, maybe we do resemble feudal Japan right before the Tokugawa Shogunate.

 It’s easy to get consumed with the sturm and drang of modern Christianity and its shaky future. The weeds are growing rapidly and threatening to takeover the lawn. It’s in this type of environment that John writes his letter to the early church. It’s loaded with the language of hope, love and peace. But crucially in this chaotic time, he separates truth from error and reminds us that we can recognize it. The message of the gospel has survived and thrived in tougher circumstances. During the time of the apostles’ ministry (AD 40 to AD 80) this new religion was nearly crushed in the Roman Empire. It’s the reason for the letters of encouragement and the missionary zeal of spreading the gospel.

“There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. We love Him because He first loved us.” (verse 18-19)

Conclusion

The spirit of truth shows up in love and casts out fear. If we are in Christ we shouldn’t fear the future. Love, in the person of Christ, did the redeeming work a long time ago. We recognize the spirit of truth when we abide in Him.

The Memorial Run Oklahoma City: Second Race

Remember This Run; OKC 2024

I finished my first race of the year this past weekend. Another 26.2 miles in the win column. Well not exactly “Win” like first place, but “win” as in everyone wins a trophy. It’s the medal around my neck in the picture by the way. I’m half kidding about everyone getting a trophy. The medallion is a race tradition that everyone walks away with for paying the race fee. No one equates it to winning. We compete against ourselves and try to improve on the last race time. We strive for the ever-shifting PR (Personal Record) and tweak our routines for efficiency. It can feel a bit like solving a problem. The inputs change, weather, health and weight. Course conditions like hills will break down your stamina.

Don’t get me started on food. Finding the right balance of carbs and fats for endurance running is harder than finding a good pizza joint in Oklahoma. I guess it’s a relief that pizza’s not a great option.

Race Gimmicks

Fortunately, Oklahoma City isn’t crazy hilly. Where there are hills, they are front loaded into the course. The second portion is mercifully flat. Heavy rain and thunderstorms the night before made the roads wet. I didn’t encounter any ankle deep puddles but a light drizzle here and there made for slick shoes. I saw one man in a shirt and tie combo and a pair of tan dress slacks keeping a steady pace. I’m not sure what that was about, some gimmick I guess. Usually where there is one there are others. But I didn't see any others dressed like that.

As I neared the finish I saw a teenager jog quickly ahead of me in loose crew socks and camouflage crocs. I’ve seen super fit guys run in those hiking, strappy type sandals that wrap around your ankle before but never crocs. I had to laugh despite my exhaustion.  

Past Regrets

 This was my second effort at the Run to Remember. Last year didn’t go well. I was sick and nearly dropped out of the race. I popped a few Pepto Bismol tablets at one of the medical tents. I felt better enough to continue tottering toward the finish. I did a lot of tottering last year—painful and pathetic though it was. It’s a cross between a walk and stagger, like a pirate with a wooden leg hustling across a busy street.  

This year I prepared better with the food. I started eating a spaghetti meal the night before every big practice run. I like Italian food, so fuhgeddaboudit! In order to keep the same routine, I ate a banana and had a gel pack every 50 minutes or so. In the last couple of weeks I started taking electrolyte tablets. I could drink Gatorade along the route instead, but I despise the sweet powdery taste on my weak stomach. It’s nearly always mixed by hand and served in a large thermos. The mix is frequently too strong. I imagine they double up on the required measurements and then serve it lukewarm.

Summer Lesson

For some reason, I get very nervous about these marathons. This might explain the weak stomach. It’s like I anticipate the struggle before it happens and naturally shrink away. It’s not fear. It’s more of a reluctance to embrace the pain that’s coming. I had a job one summer helping a contractor put on roofs. The thought of getting up early and working my body raw made me reluctant to leave the comfort of my sheets. I’d worked grocery for a lot of years and even helped my Dad with landscaping on Saturdays. But I’ve never had such a hot, dirty job that demanded so much effort from sunup till sundown. I knew it would involve carrying shingle bundles (half packs) up the ladder multiple times.  Before that we ripped off about 5 layers of old shingles on this ancient Victorian and hurled them into the dumpster. Apparently, the last roofers didn’t bother to rip the old layer off. That meant more grueling work for us.

I remember the feeling I’d get after working a hard day in the heat, wrung out. The pain in my shoulders and arms gave way to a new satisfaction after a long shower. Not the kind of satisfaction that comes from getting that Jeopardy question right that no one else knew, but of a strenuous task done right. The pain, a reminder of a kind of success I hadn’t known before.  

Conclusion

I’ve run 4 marathons now, each slightly different. My time hasn’t improved from the first. It does bother me, but I refuse to make the timing the whole of the event. I'm still hovering over the 5 hour mark. Just finishing the race is an achievement I’m proud of. When you know what it takes to finish, you can’t get too hard on yourself. No matter what the clock says at the end of race, the feeling in my legs is a satisfying pain. I know what I overcame. Plus I got the same trophy that everyone gets.  

 

 

Trump In NYC: What is Bragg Thinking?

 

Trump's PR Machine Makes Fools of the District Attorney's Office

The incident at the Harlem Bodega on Tuesday was a genius move. 

After this ridiculous show trial over payments to Stormy Daniels, Donald Trump popped in at a shop that made news a few years ago when the owner killed a man who tried to rob him. It was an obvious case of self defense, caught on video. If you never heard about the incident it goes like this. A woman comes into the bodega to buy a bag of chips.

Her card gets declined. She storms out and comes back later with this Austin Simon. Simon walks behind the counter and gets in the owner’s (Jose Alba) face. Alba grabs a knife at some point. It’s not clear when but it must have been within reach. He stabs Simon off camera and after a few seconds comes back into the frame holding a bloody knife.

The hospital pronounced Simon dead shortly after the ambulance picks him up. Because New York City is lawless, Alba gets slapped with a 2^nd degree murder charge. Thankfully the video made an impression and forced the DA to drop the charges less than a month later. That lazy, useless District Attorney is the same one charging Trump in this current payment case--Alvin Bragg. Someone on team Trump had the brilliant idea to arrange a photo op with the current owner of the bodega and Trump. It’s not Alba anymore. He left the ‘land of the free’ (don’t laugh) for the Dominican Republic after his incident. But the spectacle of Trump, shaking hands and talking to the people of New York is a savvy PR move.  

It also means that Trump has some good people who understand media and marketing. Then again, New York is making it easy for Trump to show off. The judge in the payment case (the reason DJT is in New York) has insisted the former president stay in the city for the duration of the trial. This will give Trump an opening to make an even bigger circus out of the court, the city and the mayor.

He already made Biden look bad by attending officer Jonathan Diller’s wake. This, during the same week of a big DNC fundraiser for Joe Biden’s reelection campaign. Clinton and Obama were at the fundraiser with celebrities, all hamming it up. The contrast was striking. A law and order president against a Hollywood/Big Tech president. The Diller family even told the governor, Kathy Hochul, to leave the funeral.

We’re told by quite a few people who grew up in New York City that the streets were rougher in the 70’s and 80’s. Nearly everyone got mugged at least once. It should be clear that the city isn’t serious about solving crime anymore. District Attorney’s like Alvin Bragg aren’t just soft on crime, they practically encourage it. When you’re more likely to charge citizens who defend themselves, like Mr. Alba and Daniel Penny, word also gets around. In an environment like this a guy running for president could do a lot of damage around town from a PR standpoint. Especially if he finally has a team that knows how to manage his moves. 

Gavin Wax is one such leader. I heard him do an interview with Jack Posobiec shortly after Trump’s Bodega stop. He’s clearly behind a lot of these decisions to get Trump in front of cameras and look like an effective leader. He promised more of the same.

The DA’s office is going to regret making Trump stay in the city. The old GOP would never do this. Can you imagine Mike Pence throwing support to a bodega where a black man was stabbed to death? It’s not that Pence and others don’t care about crime, but their instincts are to not offend or court controversy. If they criticize it’s only in the most generic way. My dear friend from the great state of New York, and all that nonsense. In happier times I’d prefer a genteel, statesman-like approach to conflict. But we’re in put up or shut up times. Effectiveness is all that matters. I don’t want to hear what a decent, honest and Christian man you are. I’m not excusing weakness anymore because of your firm principles.

To be fair though, Trump was a star before he ran for president and always loved the attention. No one else could have this kind of popular success. I’ve never thought of Donald Trump as a crusader for truth and justice. But he is risking everything and taking a lot of arrows in the process. A cynic will say that he is only doing it for fame. He’s never been more popular after all. But he’s literally gambling with his life and risking a serious loss to his fortune which affects his family when he’s gone. Whatever his motivations are in going through this legal gauntlet I hope he sees it through and gets back to the White House. Hopefully he has better people around him this time. 

How to Think About the Times and See the Big Picture

 

The First Principles Method of Evaluation

I listened to Mark Steyn’s weekly Q&A just an hour ago. Subscribers write in and ask him questions about anything in the news. The subject of countless lawsuits, Mark often finds himself in the news. A lot of listener (and reader) questions are directed to him. Since he’s covered the English speaking world, his range of knowledge is quite broad. He doesn’t just feed information to his listeners like he’s reading from an encyclopedia. He’s a bit like Rush Limbaugh, his focus is always toward larger trends that can be seen in smaller ones. He calls this philosophy, First Principles. It’s the same idea I had when naming my blog. Here's how I defined it few years ago.

Thinkers Philosophy

I’ll sum it up like this, you have to understand the underlying philosophy of current issues or you won’t know how to think about them. For instance, free speech is fundamental to life in a democratic system. Laws designed to curb speech are unjust. I wouldn’t want a communist in America not to have the right to voice his opinion, even though I loathe communism and find it evil. But I don’t get to decide who can speak and who can’t.  

 In the same way, Mark always focuses on the big picture in the world. In this case, a mafia like federal government that’s trampling citizen rights. He’s tough on the Constitution ‘wavers’ who think our founding document protects them from assault. The whole apparatus of government, the deep state, is playing by its own rules and going around the official process.

Chaos and Disorder

The Constitution doesn’t mean anything if whole departments operate with impunity. The justice department comes to mind as the most egregious one. But you could make a case that any one of the official departments use ‘work arounds’ for their immediate needs. Matt Taibbi exposed a lot of these ‘work around’ tactics when Elon Musk gave him access to Twitter’s email database. The FBI (primarily) was using Twitter like its own digital secret police. That’s the larger point of what the civilized world is facing. “Enemies” like the J6ers or Covid skeptics get treated like domestic terrorists. Many are being locked up for years, after being held without a trial for years, over “trespassing”. While in blue cities the district attorneys refuse to charge violent offenders. Presumably to create chaos and control people who want to live free.

With this idea of looking at the larger picture, Steyn doesn’t get wrapped up in the minutiae of legalisms.

Because the legal rationale is beside the point. Soviet police chief Lavrentiy Beria famously said “Show me the man and I’ll show you the crime”. Legal arguments become silly in a world where citizens are locked up for years for entering the Capital to take pictures.

 The West is committing suicide by allowing corruption to fester for too long. Legitimate voices are being silenced in this era of widespread censorship. It’s the so-called liberal West that’s doing it too. That’s maybe the biggest change in my lifetime. The Soviet bloc countries were supposedly basket cases led by tyrants. The West, and mostly America was the land of the free. But the important thing to remember is, without a fight we’ll lose our way of life. Mark is a pessimist but sees the issues clearly. I refuse to be without hope. I might not know the status of the future, but I believe in God and His plan for me. I do think dark days are coming for America in the near term.

Conclusion

But it will also be a wonderful time of hope and restoration. New souls with find the Kingdom, wayward Christians will return to God. In the same way that First Principles types (like Steyn) can draw on small incidents to find a larger context, Christ draws on the impersonal to focus on the personal. Financial trouble can force you to evaluate your life the same way a health event can. Suddenly, spiritual things can be seen in stark relief again the world’s system. The world a lot of us grew up in isn’t coming back. The future seems bleak right now because we’ve come through a very wealthy period in history. We mostly had a strong legal system that respected private property, speech and religion. The federal government was smaller relative to what it’s become. I don’t mean in the number of employees who drew a paycheck either. I’m talking about reach. Here is why I’m not worried long term. God is just. Those who fear Him live according to His ways. It stands to reason those who don’t fear Him don’t live according to His ways. They’ll answer to God eventually. Now that’s a First Principle.

When we surrender to Christ we can never lose. Even if we don’t know where we’re going, we get to find out. In a way that’s kind of exciting.

Good Friday, Easter and the Future of Church in America

Easter Sunday and Christianity in America

It’s Easter on the last day of March. That's early this year. My mom went to see her grandkids in Texas. I went to my Dad’s for lunch and caught up with my sister who's in town for the weekend. Since I’m a volunteer at church, I couldn’t head off to Texas. I probably wouldn’t have anyway. My marathon is less than a month away and I need most of Saturday morning to get in shape. Yesterday was a long day of training before I came home and slept for 2 hours. 

Lazy? Perhaps, but it felt so good to crash after a hot shower. I didn’t care.

Good Friday

The night before was Church on the Move’s Good Friday service. That’s an important one for tone and remembrance. It’s almost as important as Easter itself, the pain and suffering Christ endured must be juxtaposed with His glorious resurrection.

It's appropriate to be emotionally wrung out after the ceremony. I emphasize “ceremony” and not sermon because Good Friday should be a heavy day. Christians understand how the story finishes of course. Jesus overcomes death and the grave for all time. He makes a spectacle of Satan’s plans. He invites us to share the good news of salvation with the whole world. It’s more than a heroic story told and retold for generations; it’s THE story. Christ is Risen. He is coming back. We can encourage each other in this truth. But we need the solemnity of Good Friday to tee up the joyous celebration of Easter. It helps us understand what’s at stake and understand the human betrayal and suffering of our Lord.

I offered to help with communion. Instead of the usual wafer and juice in a sealed package they opted for real bread and juice cups near the front of the sanctuary. Everyone lined up down the aisles and shuffled to the front. Not the most efficient way perhaps, but they wanted a more memorable experience. This way, communion is the last piece of the evening and also sticks in your memory. Good Friday is about the crucifixion--Easter, the resurrection.

Communion

 My job was to light the candles and take away the empty trays when the cups ran out, an easy task for the most part. One guy in line threw me off my game a bit however. He grabbed the top tray and handed it to me. It still had full cups so I was confused. Then he grabbed the next tray and tried to hand that to me. I was even more confused. What was he doing with the trays?

His only job was to take a cup of juice, grab a piece of bread and go back to his seat. This was too much for him. The woman in line right behind asked if he needed help. Again, we aren’t exactly sure what he needed help with. Eventually he answered that he did. I sensed her frustration as well. She grabbed him a cup and placed it beside him so he could move on. I restacked the trays, quietly laughing to myself about the absurdity of the situation. Other than that minor hiccup, it was an emotional evening. Easter was more typical, a hopeful sermon laced with warning about sin and death. A lot of hands went up to receive Christ as Lord and Savior.

The next day I attended the Saturday service. It seems a little like jumping ahead in the retelling of the story. Jesus rose on Sunday after all. The technicality isn’t that important, what matters is the message.

The Future Faithful

I often wonder if Easter service will look different in the future. This is more a thought exercise in what “church” might mean in general. Will we see large churches in America (megachurches) 10 years from now? Will persecution in this country affect the way we gather? I can’t help thinking that major changes are coming for the country and the American Church, to say nothing about the rest of the world. People of all walks of life are starting to realize the corruption at the heart of a lot of institutions. I don’t mean to say that all churches are corrupt. Too many though have traded the truth for a lie; they’ve placed cultural trends and beliefs above Scripture.

But I can see a wave of churches refusing to go along with government mandates that inhibit their message. The communist party in China allows churches to exist if they register with the government. Even the Pope made a handshake agreement with the CCP to keep the Catholic Church operational. I can imagine a similar event here. Teach this and not that or we revoke your tax exempt status. That won’t be enough. They’ll have to start arresting preachers and dragging them through court. What looks like a death knell for the church will lead to a firestorm of converts. This is traditionally how the church grows, in persecution. We’ll have left the 4 walls and come up with new ways to reach the lost.

Conclusion

What sounds like an ominous warning of darker days can turn out to be the transition the church needs. In its current static (and wealthy) state it can only grow so much. The church is the people of God after all and not a building or a congregation on a particular Sunday morning. Wherever we are, God is in the midst. Just like Good Friday, when all looks lost and hope is nearly forgotten, Sunday shows up. The Church’s best days are still in front of us.

He is Risen. Spread the Word.

 

Working Through Life's Occasional Malaise

 

 Hard Work is a Foundational Principle

Do I still appreciate writing or has my lax schedule forced me to rethink it altogether?

It’s a chore rather a love anymore. I write less because I’m studying for a personal trainer’s exam. More days of the week are consumed with at least an hour and a half in the evening spent reading and answering questions in a study guide. Writing is suddenly my neglected skill but I wouldn’t trade the current situation. I like learning about the human body, exercise, nutrition and strength. My obligation to both my personal and business websites, has taken a beating. There’s no sense complaining about it. The adjustment is necessary for my part time job prospects. But I do feel like I’ve neglected my first love.

Appreciate the Process?

It's possible that I’m feel guilty about not being interested in a lot of the things I used to be interested in. That’s a different kind of guilt. How many times have I written about losing interest in a topic? Running and scripture are about the only 2 things I consistently write about anymore. I’ll put other things up but it seems obligatory. I needed to get this week’s quota of writing on the site, so here it goes. A lot of good writing starts out as a freeform exercise so I’m not knocking it. But I don’t comment on politics as much. I don’t really know what’s going on and that’s a difficult thing to admit. How much in the news (mainstream or alternative) is true and how much is false? No idea. I clicked on a link to a story about Covid, or maybe the vaccine. I got a few hundred words in and thought, “nope…don’t care”. That happens a lot now. Not only on Covid stuff but on a whole catalogue of current events.

 Sports are barely on the radar as a topic of interest. It’s tough to get jazzed about entertainment when so much of life in this country is looking very grim. I told myself I wouldn’t bleed out despair in this post but some of it is unavoidable.

Appreciate Entertainment?

When it comes to TV and movies, I don’t spread my wings much. Most nights I tune in for an hour before going to bed. It’s either serial shows that I’ve seen already (Seinfeld, Cheers) or long running dramas (Blue Bloods) that have been on the air for years. That last window of time before I go to bed is my zone out time. I don’t want to get creative or try something new. I’m officially winding down. The only topics I want are the easily digestible, light comedy or formulaic detective shows. I haven’t done any reviews lately because again, it’s tough to get jazzed about entertainment. Not to mention, sports and film are so painfully woke I don’t have the energy to wrestle with it, hence the old shows.

I’ll admit that a lot of this recent malaise and reluctance to write is very attitude driven. It’s like that unfinished part of your spare bedroom you’ve been meaning to work on but never do. The best you can manage is to walk through, look at the walls and take some mental notes about colors and furniture. Then you sit down with bowl of Breyers mint chocolate chip and complain about how expensive the project will be.

Appreciate the Wins?

At some point it’s just laziness. It’s more than laziness though; there’s a mental fatigue that comes from being overwhelmed by outside influences. That’s not an excuse but it does get closer to the problem. When nothing in life is going right, everything is a struggle. From finances to relationships and physical or mental strain, creativity gets pushed out and indifference takes over. Writers have to write, struggles and all. No one gets a break to sit one out. No one gets to take a month off and ignore the bills or eat what they like every day. We can’t tell our employer “Just, No” for a week and expect to keep our job. Life is crushing at times and we have to learn how to juggle events, work projects and family time. It’s true for writers and it’s true for everyone.

But we appreciate the growth because it’s hard. We value hard won victories. From a slight increase in jogging pace to a smaller waist size after a full season of running. Because what’s the alternative? We can’t keep avoiding hard tasks. Humans are meant to build and increase and grow. Not only our physical bodies but also our mental faculties. Learning anything requires foundational principles from which to build on top of. But just as easily we can ignore the building phase and opt for an easier existence. There’s also a habit-forming quality to avoiding difficulties as well. It’s not hard to imagine what this looks like. Take the easy path every time and life is difficult in a whole new way. You create a different set of problems when you’re a slave to the easy life.

Conclusion

Problems might be a part of life but I’m a problem solver. That’s a statement of intent more than a recognition of an absolute truth. I might be doing less writing these days but I’m not putting it aside entirely. It’s the clearest method I’ve found for problem solving and communicating an idea. Not to mention, it’s cathartic because it allows me to explore my thoughts (crackpot theories?) in a pseudo-intellectual way. For now though, it’s back to studying.